I am...

...hereby LOSING IT!! My mind is going a million miles an hour and there are not nearly enough hours in the day to get everything done that I need to. I need several extensions of myself to help me get through the week. Here is my to-do list:

1. 2008 Taxes out for Haight Construction
2. 2008 Supplier Statements reconciled for issues/past dues
3. Clean up of all QuickBooks account through current
4. Find birth certificates for passports
5. Go try to get passports
6. Pack Jon & I for Vegas
7. Pack Lucas for Disneyland, CA (yep, he's going without us)
8. Clean my house & do laundry
9. Pay personal bills
10. Process payroll

There are so many other things but these are all the things that I really have to get done before the end of the weekend. I will be THRILLED for Vegas to get here already!! If it weren't for Lucas being with my Dad & Tina while we are away, I might be convinced to never come back. Ha!

Tattoo

NO...this tattoo is NOT on my body.

Laugh if you will but I want a tattoo. I have zero markings on my body...unless you count stretch marks. I have only one hole pierced in each ear. I am what I would call plain!! I used to want a tattoo in high school but my Daddy threatened to cut off my allowance & college fund if I got a tattoo. I had no choice but to listen!

Jon is much like my dad. He will hear nothing of me getting a tattoo or another piercing. I don't want another piercing...I'm just making a point. He seems to like that fact that I am simple!

When all of this happened with Logan I decided that I wanted to get a tattoo as a daily reminder of him. Not that I don't have plenty of reminders...things around the house, his gravesite, etc. I just really wanted his feet tattooed on me. It seems that his feet are the most precious thing to me. I suppose it's because what I have left of him are pictures & real prints of his feet.

I thought that if my husband ever agrees to it that I would either put it on my back, right shoulder or on my inner, left wrist. I realize that it is not really an option for me right now if I want to keep the peace in my house...but one day maybe! Here is what I was thinking but on a much SMALLER scale than you see up above. I really want the heart with wings that is in the first picture. However, I would substitute the lock in the center for Logan's little feet below.

For those of you who were at his service & got a memorial booklet, maybe you will understand. The quote that Jon & I picked out for Logan was:

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go,

Some stay awile and leave footprints on our hearts.

And we are never, ever the same."

I thought that this tattoo would be fitting. Oh well. I guess a girl can dream!!

25 things about me...

I am stealing this from an email I got today from my sister-in-law, but I thought it was a great way to look for the positives about yourself. I hope that all of you will do this to...it made me feel good afterwards.

1. I consider myself to be honest, intellegent, funloving, kind and sincere.
2. I have been given the greatest of lifes blessing...my boys...whether for a brief minute or years...they are mine!
3. I am lucky enough to have a husband who treats me better than I ever dreamed.
4. I love life and all of the things that we are met with...I feel it makes us stronger as humans.
5. I am a workaholic but I enjoy my work.
6. I am a perfectionist and have limited patience for anything less.
7. I am cursed with what my husband and closest friends would call Obessive Compulsive Disorder...but I don't think I'm that bad!
8. I love my friends and think that I am a good one in return.
9. I love to read, read, read!
10. Music helps lift me through anything...sad mood, bad mood, you name it!
11. My extended family is HUGE!!
12. I have now lived through my biggest fear in life, losing a child.
13. Purple Passion snowcones from the stand in Waxahachie are my absolute favorite treat.
14. I am addicted to purses and have more than I can count at the present.
15. I am also addicted to sunglasses, the bigger the better!
16. I love sunny days that make you wish you were driving a convertable with the top down.
17. I love the ocean...from a distance...I detest getting in that murky water!
18. I have just realized that I want to have 2 more children for a total of 3 living in my house.
19. I have a strong desire to go back to school and do something that I LOVE!
20. I am quiet at first and then you can not get me to be quiet.
21. I have a strong faith and believe that it has gotten me through some very tough things.
22. My brother, Ryan, is someone I wish I were more like...he has the biggest heart of anyone I know, lives life to its fullest every day and doesn't hold back.
23. I show fewer emotions to those who aren't closest to me.
24. I am a mother hen to all of those I love.
25. I would do anything for an of you!!

Date Night

Ha! Jon & I decided to enlist my mom last night to keep Lucas while we went "out"...it's about time for some one on one time. We thought that we'd be leaving at 5:30 or so and of course we didn't make it out the door until almost 6:30 for one reason or another. No exciting movie & dinner here! We went to Lowe's to pick out stain/varnish for our cedar pillars & ceiling on our front & back porch. Then of course we needed to find the right paint brushes and such. (We have a young guy needing some work & this is what we found for him to do.)

We did go to Outback afterwards...but the food wasn't all that great. Needless to say we were back home by 8:45 and in bed before 10.

Aren't we the fun couple? Hehehe! Maybe next time!!

Argh...

I am so fedup with tax-prep already. It's one of my many jobs here to process the tax information. You would think that it wouldn't be such a problem but then what in life has been easy lately? Our office is the "corporate" for about 25 other offices that are either active or in shut-down mode. This means I have a QuickBooks account for each of those plus the 2 corporate accounts. Therefore, I have to process 1099's & W2's for each vendor & employee in all of those accounts. Last year I did about 150 1099's but this year I'm thinking it's going to be closer to 250 and then the W2's. That still wouldn't be a big deal if all the entries in QuickBooks were correct. Unfortunately there are multiple people, in multiple offices that access the accounts daily to make entries & changes. The really terrifing part is that they are correct but not in the correct format for the tax docs. Long story short, I (with Jon's help) have to go through all of those accounts, make the corrections, verify all employee info and then FINALLY print the forms. I am only about 1/2 way done with the corrections and I have to have the darn things stamped by next Saturday. Oh the stress!!

I am going to celebrate when all of this is done until next

Blame Michelle...

...if you haven't been able to get me by phone, email or text the past few days. Michelle has been trying to convince me to read the Twilight series since before Christmas. I was certain that I could never be talked of reading about vampires & warewolves!! She kept insisting that they were more of a love story than anything else and that I should jump on board. I was going absolutely stir crazy at home so I decided to give in. I downloaded the first book onto my Kindle on Saturday morning. I was so utterly obsessed after the first few chapters that I couldn't stand to put it down. I seriously finished all 4 books by Wednesday night...no lie. Ask the hubby who kept getting irritated at me for not coming to bed until midnight!! I was taking the darn thing everywhere with me! I can't remember a better love story that I've read about in years. Thanks M, but seriously...now that I'm done, what am I supposed to read now??? Ha!

Seymore Update

It's been 4 weeks since we lost our sweet Logan. It's been a challenge to say the least. My little family is doing as well as can be expected. We roll along as only we know how. We have our share of ups and downs. It's very difficult to put into words what we are going through or to describe how we feel from day to day. That being said, we have had some good days and nights. I realize that this is something that one does not get past it's something that you just learn to live with.

Jon & I have some very good friends to say the least. There are some of you who have stood firmly beside us every step of the way through this. We appreciate you greatly. Many of you sent cards, emails, meals or flowers...we thank you for that also. Your words have been comforting.

I'll let you all in on a fear of ours. We worry that the outside world will now only classify us as "that family/couple that lost the baby" and that our "friends" will no longer be comfortable around us because they don't what to say or how to act. I pray that this is not the case. Jon & I are the same people that we always were...we just have a little more on our minds and a little heaviness on our hearts. I have no doubt we will get through this and I pray that all of our family & friends will continue to stand beside us.

Jon & I decided that events to look forward to were the best, most positive, medicine right now. That being said, we are leaving to go to Las Vegas on February 5th and coming home on the 8th. We are so very excited. We haven't been to Vegas since our wedding...for those of you who didn't know...we did in fact get married there at The Paris. The whole wedding planning stress was too much for me to take!! Our next "event" will be during spring break when we go to Cancun with my family (Dad) for 8 days. I am seriously considering a personal trainer until then to help whip me into some form of "beach shape". Jon says to just make the phone call but as you see...I have yet to do it! Any suggestions Waxahachie folks?

Thanks again to all of you for your thoughts and prayers for our family! I can assure you that they are a blessing and are a tremendous help!!

Are you kidding me...

The other day I was trying to update my blog...or more accurately, edit one of my posts. I guess that I wasn't exactly paying attention to what I was doing and hit the delete button instead of the edit button. That is how my blog came to be with any posts. I tried to undo it but all of my posts are in fact gone. Oops!

I'm hoping to be much better at this whole blogging thing this year. I got two fun presents for Christmas this year. Jon bought me a new touchscreen camera (it's super cool) and Mom & Dan bought me a Flip Ultra (it's super, super cool)! I have taken a few pictures & videos of Luke's first basketball game & practice. I will have to post some of them if I can figure out how to work them!!